Morning

This morning, after finishing up with Emry's feeding I decided to go out onto our deck and see what the weather was like.  It was cool and slightly breezy, the sun was just over the house behind ours and sining through the trees.  Inside everyone else was (and still is) asleep.  Never in my life would I have thought that I would enjoy a morning, but today it is nice to have peace.  I am exhausted, from feeding Emry 4 times throughout the night, but the stillness is good.  I think this is the first time in a long time that I can actually hear the keys on the keyboard!  This is nice after a not so great Father's day; it's nice.
Don't get me wrong I love my family, Charolette, Emry and Katie, but it is nice to have the stillness.

"In the secret, in the quiet place, in the stillness You are there...."

Speaking of.....

The song that inspired my last post is "fix me" by Ten years.  It's pretty much a summation of where I have come to over the past few months.  The line that is really the summation is, "I'm fine in the fire, I feed in the friction, I'm right where I should be. Don't try and fix me."  While I don't think I'm where I should be. I am not a fan of others trying to fix me or my family.  My wife and I have received a lot of unsolicited advice about what is happening with my son and other issues.  Don't get me wrong I appreciate people trying to help, but it does get old after a while.  I feel like I am in the fire, I am growing and learning more and more every day, I relish learning new things, it's just not always that comfortable to stretch yourself.  There is another song, (I can't for the life of me think of the title or band, so f anyone knows please let me know) which goes " I'll take the narrow road, there's a whole more to go.  Hope yours is filled with sunshine, right now that's not my road... abundant life, to many joy is to survive"  Right now my road is not filled with sunshine, but it will be someday again.  I have faith that what we are going through is a learning experience, as every trial is.  Just pray that I learn from this instead of being hardened.  

Music

Music...
It can ground you or take you to new wolds.  It touches the soul when done well.  It can tear down and build up.

I used to be interested in just rock, more specifically punk, but my music horizons have expanded.  Now I really like good music, from pretty much any genre.  My favorite song is actually a Hymn.  So what is "good music"?  I think it's more than just what one likes but there is something more.  Good music, great music move some ones soul, it is beautiful and can be, if not enjoyed by every one, respect for it's artistry.  With some bands or artist it's just one song, with others it is very consistent.  It is however very rare that any band or artist will do it all the time.  For one to find truly goo music though you have to be willing to expand your musical horizon.  I am by no means perfect when it comes to this but.  I am finding the more music I listen to I find more good music, much of it in styles that I never thought I would.

 Music is an amazing thing.
Be open to hearing new things!